Loved and lost -- lost in love

They say it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.

I absolutely disagree.

I loved and lost and I wish I had never loved at all. I am still in love for all the good it does me.
One thing I do know is that it takes more than one to make a relationship. When one person decides it is over, it is over no matter how the other person feels.

I still love you, you know who you are, and I will never stop loving you. I think about you constantly. I cried on a mutual friends shoulder tonight. I don't know how to stop loving you. I wish I did. I can't turn it off like a light switch. Maybe you could teach me how to. That wont happen though, you wont even talk to me. You said we could still be friends but it didn't take you long to drop me from your friends list.

I sent you an IM but you never responded.

It's been almost 9 months now. Might as well be 9 years.

I am glad you can move on and I wish you all the best. All I ever wanted for you was for you to be happy. Yes, I wish you could have been happy with me but it was not meant to be I guess.

Well, I guess I have ranted enough. I wish things could have worked out differently but as long as you are happy then I am happy for you.

Love you with all my heart

Mala

So much happens so fast

Well it has been a long time and so much has happened. I started to write this long blog about everything but I ended up deleting it.

So here is the short version.

I am no longer married. There will be no T.S.L.C. Christmas sucked. And a couple of weeks ago I met a wonderful girl. I wont say her name, only because she wants me to say it. Well ok maybe just once. Fluffy.

I'll try to write more later.

Mala